Poor sap

man,what can i even say to u, lehman brothers? that u sort of tantalized me at the very beginning and continuously shedding a huge ribbon of light of hope into my world afterwards for the past 2 months while eventually deprived me of everything leaving me nothing but a has-been delusion?

now it seems soooo empty, soooo quite, not even any spark of hope left. all my efforts have been turned into vain, a piece of worthless crap. i still cannot believe that why on earth this actually happened?? give me one reason, God...since i just cannot understand it....it's like i've been much toooo pathetic and unlucky for years and i've been going thru varioius rejections for like, say, countless times...why can't i just amount to sth??? ok, the worse is that, i always get rejected at the very last minute...i'm soooo stereotyped of being competitive all along the way while eventually getting turned down. this just sucks big time. i just fucking hate it.

oh, lehman, how can i say that i hate u?sorry for being rude...i should feel sooo grateful to u that u took an interest in me in the first place. "u cannot always win". that's down right the truth!i know it. well i just never expected that finding a summer internship is that harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd...

while, i can expect a long torturing summer, goofing off...doing nothing specific...life sucks.