true friendship is a luxury for me..

why the hell is it soooo damn difficult to find a true friend? either it's too boring or too phony...or too dumb or too shallow...

i dont know what is goin' on with me....suddenly i'm becoming such a fastidious prick with an ego panache, but i just cant find the people here interesting enough to make buddies with...

maybe it's just my problem..i'm a weirdo probably...i remember i used to fight with a girl from high school almost everyday at that moment, however we became truly soul mates after we graduated and our friendship is sustainable, i have no doubt about that...

friends r important, i know..that's why i feel sort of lost in my life...i've had the whole world, but i also missed sth that is indeed precious and unparalleled.

u just can't be good, can u?

sometimes people just keep on renderin' decisions on a whim, be it a sheer lunatic or a doggone sensible person...hate it or love it, i'm exactly like this....

yeah,here is my confession: i'm a mercurial and impulsive girl, i sometimes just cannot help doin' obnoxiouly willful things...which might be totally drastically immoral to some sense...

and PLZ, forgive me...whatever i've done, i did it out of a reason..i'm not an insane, irrational or desperate girl who easily loses her mind...
or maybe it's better off this way, aint it?

and i do hope that, things could work out for their best..