bad day...

this morning really sucked...i acted out like a bitch again...i shouted at one stupid and ugly girl(a woman maybe) in the elevator, which probably could have been prevented from happening...anyway, it was really a bad idea..since i shoudn't have started a fight with such a stupid and unconscionable skank.....

i dont know why it has been soooooooooo much easier for me to get mad or furious these days...like anything can stand on my nerve and cos me to lose my temper....i'm becoming soooooooooo grumpy.....even i myself sometimes cannot believe that! OMG, what am i doin???

the shitty thing is that: whenever i start a fight with someone else, the others always take the side which is opposite to me..why? cos i look sooooo slutty and irrational and ill-educated?? and girls(who r not fams) always act against me...they always treat me unkind...like saying something which is really unfriendly.....i kinda have had enough of this...i hate those whores...

well, i'm just doing my thing...at least some people are conscious and intelligent....

i don't feel well

i'm so sad....yesterday night, i just tossed and turned on my bed...i could not fall asleep....
dear lord, help me, please....

i feel totally cracked up....tired and exhausted...it seems that my heart has been ripped...like it's bleeding all the time..man...

i dont know when i'm gonna be ok...lord, i pray to u every day for this...help me out of this....please
don't blame all this on myself..i've done whatever i could to make it easier...life ain't no easy,man..

nonetheless, all i need is just an easier way to get to it...
believe me, i won't do this only if i cannot stand with it any longer...my paranoia is keelin me.

YouTube's Growing Competition(from SlashDot)

BusinessWeek looks at YouTube's rapidly growing imitators and questions the site's long-term viability. In addition to the competition, YouTube continues to face problems caused by its reliance on copyrighted material; the site's popularity is service- (rather than emotion-) based, which makes it a ripe target for anyone that might replicate and improve the service. From the article: 'YouTube's own challengers are advancing at a rapid rate. AOL is re-engineering its video site to mirror YouTube's success, and CNN is launching CNN Exchange, which will house user-contributed video features. Then there are sites like Eefoof.com, Panjea.com, Revver and Blip.TV, which share up to 50 percent of ad page revenue with the creator of the videos. Others like Dabble.com (currently in beta) sort through all video hosting sites (like YouTube and its competition) for search content, while specialty video sites like Pornotube concentrate on one point of interest.'