i don't feel well

i'm so sad....yesterday night, i just tossed and turned on my bed...i could not fall asleep....
dear lord, help me, please....

i feel totally cracked up....tired and exhausted...it seems that my heart has been ripped...like it's bleeding all the time..man...

i dont know when i'm gonna be ok...lord, i pray to u every day for this...help me out of this....please
don't blame all this on myself..i've done whatever i could to make it easier...life ain't no easy,man..

nonetheless, all i need is just an easier way to get to it...
believe me, i won't do this only if i cannot stand with it any longer...my paranoia is keelin me.